Introduction

In February, 2020, I experienced mild memory problems: I could not remember the names of my patients. My doctor evaluated my memory as well as my body. I remembered zero of five memory items (e.g., white fence, red car, etc.) one minute after being told the items. The blood tests were essentially normal, but the brain scan revealed a cancer in the left part of the brain, 2/3 the size of a golf ball. I saw the surgeon two days later, and he performed left sided brain surgery nine days later. I left the hospital the day after the surgery!! It was difficult to focus and concentrate.

I was bored and sad, weeping about three hours per day. I had practiced psychiatry for 45 years. In medical school I said that I wanted to experience three parts to my professional life: patient care, administration, and teaching. I missed all three aspects of my life.

Following surgery, it was difficult to read books and to concentrate. I can no longer do crossword puzzles, although I play bridge and tennis well, and do Sudoku.

Anna has called me every day since the operation. She asked me about my past. I relished her questions, and only then did I start feeling that someone was interested in me. Every day she had a different question.

Anna suggested that I write down the answers to her questions. I was suddenly excited, and she sent me the list of her telephone questions, and I soon added other questions. I have enjoyed writing these memories.

Many thanks to Liz Mueller Klem, a dear, clear and close high school friend, for her excellent editing.